Dear Doubting Thomas, You said you want to want to become a Christian, but you cannot understand how a loving God would have allowed you to be abused. You said you are both ashamed and angry about the past. The abuse you endured is not your fault. You do not have to go on feeling ashamed. You cannot hide your feelings from God so go ahead and tell him how you feel in prayer. Reach out and ask for help from a counselor. One day, you will be able to feel joy and hope once more. Mankind has chosen to rebel against God, and that is why we suffer the consequences of sin. The suffering is not isolated to you. Millions of people suffer from physical, emotional, sexual abuse, and neglect. Other children may not suffer abuse, but they live without clean water, a reliable source of food, or proper shelter. Yet others may live a normal life until they try to conceive and are unable to have children. Then they become devastated. One hundred percent of people in this life face some kind of suffering. God does not want us to live in suffering. He desires to love us, protect us, and wipe away every tear for eternity in heaven. If you want this, it is time to turn to him and ask him to save you. Sincerely, Your Friend in Christ
P.S. This is what the Bible tells us about our future with God in heaven: “There will be no more death or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!” (Revelation 21:4-5).
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