Dear Doubting Thomas, You said you want to be a Christian, but you cannot imagine a kind God letting your loved one die. You said you just want to know why. First, I want to say how sorry I am for your loss. It can be so painful to deal with those feelings of grief, shock, sorrow, loneliness, emptiness, among others. Knowing a specific reason why that person has passed on would not necessarily help you deal with your emotions. Getting help to express your emotions will comfort you. If you feel angry or bitter at God, you can open up and be honest with him in prayer that you feel that way and ask him to comfort you and to relieve that pain. It can be helpful to express your feelings by chatting with a friend, meeting with a counselor, journaling your feelings, channeling your feelings into some artistic expression, or even by exercising. Somehow it can feel so personal when someone close to us dies, but I can assure it is nothing personal. Our bodies all die at one time or other, whether it is due to disease, accidents, old age, or something else. The good news is our souls can live eternally with God if we trust Jesus for our salvation. The worst decision you could make is to ruin your chances to meet that loved one again in heaven by separating yourself from God. The degree to which you miss that loved one does not even compare to the degree of sorrow God feels toward you as you continue to live independent of him. He has a great plan for you, the world, and everyone else in it. He knows when we will be born and when we will die. He works everything together for our good because he loves us. Sincerely, Your Friend in Christ
P.S. The Bible tells us that when Christians are “…away from the body…”, then they are “at home with the Lord.” (2 Corinthians 5:8)
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